This little light of mine…

Thousands of candles can be lit from a single candle,
and the life of the candle will not be shortened.
Happiness never decreases by being shared.
– The Buddha

 

I feel like I’ve lost some of my light. I must admit I’ve felt this way for a few years, yet just recently, I seem in a big hurry to “lighten-up” (no pun intended). It’s almost cyclical for me. I go on a 9-year stretch, and then bam! I’m back to working on the thing I’ve worked on years before, albeit with more wisdom and ease. I’ve been reading books and blogs again, writing again, reaching out again… and I even took an online course called ROOTED with Megan Monique who was kind enough to show me the way. This course was the beginning of renewing my essence. I learned to breathe, communicate and let out my creativity. The latter is probably the one I have neglected the most… My creativity needs to shine daily!

So what steps am I going to take to find this light of mine? Well, I started this year by making a bucket list of things I want to do in 2011. The disappearance of light started when I stopped doing all the things I really love to do. Then again, I could say it started when I was fulfilling everyone else’s needs but mine. You can say I’m somewhat of a martyr. This is the list I made:

1. Going out to a movie,
2. Going to at least 1 concert;
3. More girls nights;
4. Time alone (just by myself);
5. Nurturing the relationship with the BF.

I didn’t include my kids here because I spend most of my “doing time” and “quality time” with them and for them.

Nurture myself is the next thing. Taking care of my body, being mindful when I dress, putting some makeup on to feel pretty are all things I kind of stopped doing. I don’t own pretty clothes, because I do not take the time to go buy pretty clothes. I don’t have pretty hair, because I don’t take the time to get a haircut. I have skin tags I hate, but I don’t take the time to get them removed by a dermatologist. Those are HUGE examples of me not LOVING myself. I must feel worthy of all of this in order to move forward.

Therefore, this is where I’m at. I’m at the point of renewal. I’ve seen this in my horoscope, on friends FB pages, on twitter.. The message is loud and clear! It is that time for me again. Time to shed my snakeskin.

Please feel free to share with me your insights. How to you keep from going stale? What are you renewal rituals? Your input will help me find my way.

Love and light