I’ve been raking my brain this past month since I’ve been on sick leave. How do I take care of myself so I can be a better mom, gilfriend, friend, daughter.. etc.. I’ve been having trouble giving myself credit for the things I have accomplished, thus creating more anxiety inside myself.
To tell you the truth. I feel stuck. I feel I’ve taken many steps backwards, like a truck backing up all I hear right now is beep beep beep. (watch out!) As much as I put my gears in forward motion it doesn’t seem to work. I’m focusing on the things I have not done instead of focusing on the things I’ve done to make things right for myself.
I’ve set up goals, vision boards, dreams, and intents, yet I feel like my mind is blank and devoid of creativity. I know what I have to do, and I’ve done it.. but it’s not enough. Why am I here? I ask myself in this present moment and time. Spiritually I know there is a reason, and deep inside I know the answer, so why am I letting myself been run by a backwards motion. Or.. the question is: “Am I really going backwards?”
Maybe I’m perceiving it that way because of the lack I feel which I have not felt in years.
As I watch the world go through the motions, I’m also going along with it. As I watch the Olympians be the best they can be, I’m inspired to the point of feeling like I’ve failed. I’ve failed myself. I didn’t listen to the warning signs, nor the quest of my soul. The urges and desires of my spirit, and I can only take it from here. I can only allow myself to be inspired to get up, get dressed and be the best ME I can be! Sounds cliché, I know. Yet it’s the only venue I can give.
So as I approach this next day the Universe has given me. I am reminded that only I can make the best of things.. and Yes.. as the title of my URL explains: The Best is Yet to come!! I know!
Namaste
Muse In The Valley 