Walking the path of depression is probably the best gift Spirit has given me. The opportunity for growth is extreme. However, not everyone goes through depression the same way. It can take some longer than others to heal. There is no magic pill anyone can take to rid themselves of this mental illness. You cannot “snap out of it” or “make it go away with positive thinking” and as my friend Mel Horrod cleverly said this week in a conversation about demystifying depression and it’s stigma:
Just pull your socks up’, was something I heard over and over again when I was ill. I couldn’t even get the socks into the washing machine, let alone put them on and pull them up!
Humor aside, many, including me (at one time) have judged another suffering from this, at times, debilitating mental illness, and made assumptions on how they are not doing enough to heal themselves. Well today, I know this is bullshit!
Even as I continue the healing process myself, with my meds and therapy, there are still others who think they have the “magical cure” and now I am speaking up. Don’t get me wrong, when others offer advice, I know it doesn’t come from dark place, comments and advice are often well intended in order to help the person with clinical depression, and even though their words are coming from a place of love, sometimes, words, just make it worse.
Now, let me reiterate, that there is a HUGE difference between being depressed, and actually having a diagnosis of clinical depression. When I google: define depressed this is what comes up:
Don’t let depression define you!
Know the difference!
|Synonyms:||dejected – sad – despondent – low-spirited – downcast|
Everyone gets “depressed” every once and awhile, however, not everyone suffers from clinical depression, bipolar disorder, or any other disorder in the mental illness spectrum. It is important to know the difference and act accordingly. No one wants to suffer alone in silence! Yet, the pains, aches, and overwhelming thoughts can be very scary. One wants to chase them away…
Yet, in order to heal the pain, you must feel the pain!
So, read as many self-help books you want, post 1000 post it notes in your house with positive affirmations, listen to up-beat music, however, this is not the cure for depression, and this is where many of us get frustrated. Sure these are all tools, and I use them all the time, but, there are times, when all I want to do is cry!
Why can’t I be happy like everyone else? ITS NOT FAIR!
Because, you cannot will yourself to be happy when clinically depressed. It just doesn’t work! Oh.. yes, on some days it can, but others, one just has to wrap themselves up in a cosy blanket with all their favorite books, journals, music and maybe even a stuffy or your trusty cat or dog, and just be. Feeling those emotions are painful, yes, letting them well up without pushing them away is the most challenging part.. You’d think it is torture!! Yet, this is the best way to heal.
Surround yourself with cheerleaders
Take clinical depression seriously. Have tons of cheerleaders, those who have been through it, or those who really want to listen without telling you what to do. Also, have a therapist you can trust, yes I know they cost money, but if you cannot afford one, keep calling help centers or community centers near you until someone listens!! Do not take NO for an answer.. and if you are too weak to do so, ask your “go to” person to help!
The dreaded “pill”
Medication is an option only you can decide. I was totally against medication for years. I have a son who has ADHD, and trust me, I tried everything before resorting to giving him meds, now he takes his dose of Concerta every day, but only when he is in school. For me, the meds came when I found this most amazing Therapist, she eased me into the idea for weeks, without giving me an ultimatum. The decision had to come from me and me only. I was very afraid of medication since I had a bag experience with Paxil 11 years ago, and I was afraid of negative side effects. So I started taking low doses gradually increasing month after month. Right now I am on 15mg of Celexa, and its working just fine. I have no idea if I will have to take the pills for 1 year, 2 years or all my life, what I know for sure is, the pills have created a bridge between the darkness and the light, and I see the benefits now.
The journey is your own, and yours only. No one can tell you what is best for you only you know in the deepest part of your spirit. Listen to that, and if depression is numbing that part of you, and you cannot hear what it is saying… be still.. it too shall pass. I am not saying to only hear what you want to hear, there are times when one needs to be shaken’ up a little! Yet for this, there is a time and place.
In the Arms of the Angels
If I had only one wish when everything was dark, and I felt alone in the world, and sometimes I even feel this today. I would have wished for a loved one to come, sit, read a book and NOT say a word when my tears started to flow. I would have loved a hug, a snuggle or a pat on the back… The presence of the person, not the “advice” is what I would have needed at the time, and there are days, like yesterday, when I felt that too. Yet, I am so blessed to have those friends, who in spirit, came to me every day, and offered me love and support. I have a mom who still calls me every night a 7! A dad who comes when I call, and I don’t call him enough.
I have my angels! My guides and my spirits!
I felt those loving warm arms of my late grandmother, and the warmth of my spirit guides whispering in my ears.
Love, in fact, is what held me tight… without love there would have been no light… Just like today, when I saw a glimpse of the sun, after days and days for rain and cloud, giving me just a tad of rays to brighten my day before the clouds rolled over it again, the love I received, even in small doses, the self-love and care I gave myself, I know there is more to come.
There will be sun, but there will be rain, and there will be storms, tornadoes and rainbows! Just that when depression hits, it is the storms that envelop us, so please, just be there .. just be. No need to cheer me up.. no need to “fix” me.. just tell me “I love you” and all is well.
Because, in fact, I love you too, and if someone you love is depressed, now you know how you can help. Read them a story, offer to wash their hair, get them flowers, cook them a dinner, or just curl up with a book and watch them sleep.. Its is the most loving thing you will ever do!!
Wishing you love and light today!!
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