Tequila, the ring, and a chair by a pond – Part II The Interpretation

Please note in tomorrow’s post Megan Monique gives

 me her take on the interpretation.


The Interpretation


Being with a group usually means you are merging various aspects of your personality. I see many players in this dream. Each and every one of them, it seems, represent a part of you, thus the merging.

In the beginning of the dream you resist going to Paris, making up excuses not to go with this group, right at the last-minute. As we discussed, Paris in your eyes is a cold, touristy place, and a place like anywhere else, so going there in your dream was not important to YOU yet important to others! Right? So I am wondering here, what is it in your life now, that you are saying NO to because you are standing up for yourself?

As you leave this group with the DUDE (that’s the name I gave him) you leave your only way of communicating with those you left. Leaving you vulnerable and scared.. Out of the loop.. Not knowing.. Disconnected.. Paranoid, like something really bad is going to happen: I feel deep-rooted fear in your life now.

Also, I see in this dream that you are carrying BAGGAGE, lots of it, enough that is takes you long to gather it up and continue on your path every time. So, my question is: What baggage are you carrying in this life which is slowing you down? What still needs go?

I see there are two things here you let go willingly!! YES! Your dream helped you with this.

1. You let go of Tequila.. I think Tequila represents regret, and self-sabotage. Have you made intentions of letting this go lately? Or maybe you are doing this unconsciously. If not.. Its time to let go of any regret, fears which will lead to self sabotage. Also, the fights with Brian! What are the issues about.. What are you NOT saying to Brian today that you cannot say without the Tequila!!! ?? I think letting go of the Tequila in your dream will help with communication with him from now on!

2. The ring: Rings usually mean commitment and loyalty. Do you feel that you need to let go of some of the commitments that you made? Would letting them go make you feel “unloyal”? Because if so, give yourself permission to do so if it’s not calling you anymore.

The fact that you let these go after you went down a narrow steep path leads me to believe that the journey of letting go is scary, and mixed with some narrow-mindedness (resistance)… (which we all have).. Maybe open up to the idea of letting something go that no longer serves you.. Could be past hurts, past friendships.etc.. The fact that you went down to do this leads me to believe this is deep-rooted!

The good news is both the pond and the chair mean you need some quiet time to yourself.. .a time to reflect on this situation going on in your life.. Time to contemplate to relax. I think whatever is that is tormenting you, scaring you right NOW, can be resolved with some good old-fashioned reflection and meditation.

Once the baggage let go in the pond, the older sister dies. This leads me to believe a part of you has died, the angry Tequila chick!!! Like I said, letting go releases the anger (cause the older sister was angry a few times in this dream)..

Then she WARNS you. Your inner child (id) and EGO (you) both hear this.

FATHER (parental figure) is angry because you unleashed a secret. Warning ! Warning ! You get scared of this part of you.. You are hiding from this part of you that holds a secret of some sort. Does everyone in your real family know exactly what you do for a living? Do you hide your real talents from them? Do you feel like if everyone knew the Real MEGAN MONIQUE They would judge you? I will ask this question but don’t feel insulted.. Is Brian supportive of all that you do? Or does he think (or someone in your life think) You should go out and get a “real job” ???

“We must be willing to let go of the life we have planned,
so as to accept the life that is waiting for us.”
~Joseph Campbell~

Because you feel hurried, misplaced, unwanted, disliked, scared, threatened etc.. Seems to me someone is your real life or YOU are putting pressure on yourself..and judging yourself. STOP THAT!!! Because in the end you are singing happily with your choir. The choir, I truly believe represents all those who do support you, and most importantly the part of you who believes in yourself.. Alas, yet again, you meet disapproval.

Who disapproves? Who is not supporting you in your new endeavours? Who are you hiding your true self from?

As we discussed, I think your North Node is calling you. We’ve discussed these North Nodes many times with Jennifer Shelton. Maybe she can clarify further, and give you another perspective.

I found this description of your North Node here:

North Node, Libra South Node (found on northnodeastro for the purpose of this interpretation)

Your Aries North Node Soul wants to find its courage. It wants to be excited, to explore, and even to be stressed out— if that’s what it will take to bring forth the independent and courageous side of you! Courage is the high road for Aries, and it’s what we do each time we step up the plate and “show up” whether we feel like it or not. Courage is what we need to have to survive and to be a pioneer. You are the natural survivor, pioneer, entrepreneur and sacred warrior of the zodiac.

However, if you wish, ask Jennifer at FemCentral to see what role your North Node  and South Node play in this dream, because I have a feeling they do..

Jennifer is the  founder of FemCentral, where she also works as an astrologer, intuitive coach and instructor.

I really loved interpreting Megan’s dream.  There is so much more I discovered while writing this post.   I hope you enjoyed today’s #DreamFriday.  Please come back tomorrow.  I will be posting Megan’s feedback. 

Sweet dreams

Zakaphorian Dreams Part I – The Dream

Dreams are often most profound when they seem the most crazy.  Sigmund Freud

Welcome to my first published dream interpretation.  I have been interpreting dreams since my early 20s for friends and family using a method I learned by a psychologist and my intuition.  Recently, I started sharing my gift with online friends and found myself seeking to do more and more.  So, its with great pleasure I introduce you to my first dream.  



I had my first dream late 2007; I was very depressed and in dark place emotionally, mentally, spiritually. I remember asking God (like I always do) to watch over my soul mate. It made me feel less lonely inside. One night in 2007, I had a great vivid dream about this really handsome guy: tall, dark hair, big shoulders and arms. He looked intimidating but he really was a warm snuggly man. He had angular facial features (cheek bones, nose, chin, and eye brows). He wore black (t-shirt, jeans, shoes) the jeans were baggy but not falling off the butt, the shirt was tight but comfortable, and the shoes were leather work shoes. What stuck out in my mind the most were the tattoos he had: There was one on his back that was covered up by his t-shirt (it’s a representation of a life changing event he told me in my dream), but there were these wing tips or horns sticking up out of the color of the t-shirt. There was another tattoo down his left arm it was long narrow rectangular shape (it’s on his bicep), but the rest of it was covered up (it’s a religious meaning tattoo; he shared that with me as well). I know about the meanings of the tattoos because I saw them and asked about them in my dream.

Frequently I have dreams about this guy in all kind of situations: for example one dream I was having an emotional breakdown sitting in a bath tub just crying and screaming. He was there just very calmly and supportively sitting by me not saying anything…just letting me get it all out. The bath tub was white, the walls where a tan color, the tile was white/gray marble, and the towels were red. I remember I was feeling…completely exhausted by everything on every level (physically, emotionally, mentally, etc…) He was just there quiet and not judgmental…very loving energy. The relationship I had with this guy was deeply intimate, committed: a friendship, partnership, lover, and very intense.



Last November(2010) I wasn’t feeling very good after I had an intense energy healing session with a new client on a Tuesday night and I was completely drained the next day along with back pain. The problem was that my client’s energy got intertwined with mine and was stuck, which was stressful experience for me. Thursday I got an experienced friend to help me be released, and by Friday I was a total zombie. I felt very much like I did back in 2007. Friday night I was half watching TV, which is very rare for me to do by the way? I ended up watching Ghost Adventures (never heard of this show before…let alone the people in it). I noticed the tattoo on one of the guy’s neck and thought nothing of it until a few days later. There was a flash…light bulb of OMG that’s the tattoo the guy in my dreams has! I frantically looked up the TV show I was watching to find out who was on it. I saw a picture of the guy (his name is Zak), he had the arm tattoo…looked freakishly the same as the tattoo from my dreams. There was Zak and that neck tattoo the guy in my dream had. The research I have done on Zak informed me that his back tattoo is actually symbolic of when he was partly possessed during a paranormal investigation in Povalia Italy. In my dream I only knew the guy’s back tattoo symbolized a life changing event in his life. It’s interesting to me how I noticed his back tattoo the day after I had my own “possession”, since his tattoo symbolizes a time in his life when he was in a similar situation. Zak didn’t get his back tattoo until 2009…I had a dream about this guy with a very similar looking back tattoo it in 2007?!! Every time I see Zak’s back tattoo I get chills all over as you can imagine.


Just a little note about me before I go on I’ve always wrote out character traits or things in a guy that I like and value in a long term partner.  As I’ve watched Ghost Adventures and learn more about Zak, and so on. I notice that the list I wrote of character traits in my soul mate that want or wish for(those things  I wrote a long time ago) reflect Zak’s traits, likes, dislikes, hobbies, and so on match up with Zak’s traits, likes, dislikes, hobbies. To me this is just way to freaky to ignore or pass off as a coincidence. It’s not just that either “other things” happen without any rational explanation such as: over the 4th of July weekend I was very tired, emotionally at a breaking point (I worked 60 hours that past week) and the house was a mess. I stepped in a cat hair ball, and I was getting pissed off, frustrated, cranky to the point of tears…someone re-tweeted Zak’s tweet about how his last 24 hrs were shitty and he actually stepped in his dog’s pee. I don’t follow Zak on facebook or twitter, due to my work schedule I can’t watch his shows any more. Somehow by an act of a higher power things like this happen. Another time something similar happened one day my cell phone was sitting in my purse at work locked up and turned off. I turned it on, there was a picture of Zak…Random things like that happen. That is why I’m getting to the point of needing clarity or something, because this isn’t just some freak event….not a coincidence type of deal.


I’m obsessed with finding out what is going on and what is triggering this strong connection to me with a guy I’ve never met in this life time. Earlier this year (2011) is when this obsession came over me to figure out what this means, what is going on, and so on started. I have been trying to figure it out through astrology, asking my spirit guide/God, and talking with my friends. I just can’t seem to figure it out…


This dream has changed my life since last November…I feel like I’m losing my mind. I just can’t ignore it or pass it off as “nothing” any longer. Kim please help me out, and yes I still have dreams with the guy in them at least a couple times a week.

Kelly Beversdorf

See below for Part II –  The Interpretation + The Astral Intepretation by Jennifer Shelton


Zakaphorian Dreams – The Interpretation

There are times when in a dark place in life, one can manifest signs or people in waking dreams. For example, I was at a huge crossroads in my life. Just got fired from my job and was contemplating this ridiculous idea of going to University to get a Teaching degree. I was 25 at the time, and had no money. I couldn’t see how getting in University, after working 8 years in insurance, would be possible. All I had was a High School Diploma. Then one night, I was watching Late Night With David Letterman (on an American Channel/I live in Canada) and all of a sudden the screen went dark, and this add appeared: “Concordia University, Real Education for the Real World” the screen returned black and it was back to David!!! I was in SHOCK!! I had never experienced that sort of “sign” in my life. I took it quite seriously and 4 years later that I had my  Teaching Degree specializing Early Childhood education.

This is a good example of what is happening in this dream, however, it seems to take it quite further. I have never experienced this before (with a person on t.v. who is real). I did some research on Zak, but most importantly his tats. On his arm he has the celtic cross. See meaning here On his wrist he has a tattoo which he declines to talk about because it represents his “dark side” and he said something about Dracula.

The Tatoo on his back is of a gargoyle or winged demon. Those horns were really wingtips as you describe.

Before you started having dreams about “Zak” you mentioned asking God to take care of your Soul Mate. I am assuming this Soul Mate also has the list of characteristics you wrote in your journal about the man you want to attract? Am I correct? If so, “Zak” seems to be the representation of this guy.. , but most importantly, Zak is also the representation of all those qualities in YOU!! If you get what I mean. People in our dreams, like in real life, are also a mirror of ourselves.. You can create, in you, what is in Zak.. Whatever depression you were going through Zak was sent to help you through it. Meaning.. You can also count on yourself for comfort too!! Yet I also have a hunch it goes deeper than that… However, since I do not know you personally it makes this interpritation a bit more challenging.

Ok.. So.. The part where Zak manifests on tv excites me too. I get the shivers. Spirit can come to you in many ways: Radio, tv, songs, billboards, friends, poems.. Animals etc… When spirit or angels or God wants to tell you something and one is very tired (depression) he goes at it with a bang. (I’m speaking from my intuition here). Maybe Zak is a Soul Mate in a past life, I guess Jennifer can touch on that subject more deeply. However, what I know for sure, that if you look at the dreams, and the tat meanings all relate to a spiritual path with God. He’s the rock and the support you need in this life: Your faith in God! Zak is the manifestation of all the support, strength, and love you need.. Zak also has a dark side, which, does not come through in your dreams except for the “term” intimidating. Maybe, you know, with Zak around, nothing can hurt you! Do you see that?

Here is Jennifer Shelton’s Astral Chart Intepretation:

The only strong past life connection that I see is his Saturn to your sun. You’ve been obsessed with him before, also, from afar. I sense that maybe he was a leader in your community or tribe or clan; perhaps you tried to do something to win his approval, to get him to notice you. (And, you may have been a male in that incarnation.)

Something about what he does and who he is – you want to be. He’s your golden shadow. And, with that Saturn being conjunct your present North Node, figuring out how to bring out that Shadow in  yourself will help you to evolve and fulfill this life’s purpose.  See what you like about him – and work to cultivate that in yourself.

I see the Saturn sun opposition (strong) and a more minor aspect between his Jupiter and your Mercury, which reinforces that interpretation I had about Saturn, as does the more minor aspect between your sun and his Pluto. To be a karmic connection, it needs to be an outer planet aspecting a personal planet.



…and the winner is!!!

We are wired to be successful if we follow the path of our North Node, so the Universe will keep throwing opportunities at us that lead us down that path. If we refuse to go, though, out of fear or a desire to stay comfortable, we become
miserable. –Jennifer Shelton

Yesterday and today I had record views of my blog, in total 70 of you clicked on the link on FB or Twitter and although only 17 of you voted.  I am very very very happy with the results.

It was 50/50 between Northward Bound and Muse In The Valley so I decided to keep both.  I really think these titles are appropriate at this time.  I am about to embark on a totally different path.. Something I have not tried before.  It may seem the same to some at first, however, I know that what I have been fighting in the past is persisting in my life.

I have a circle of sisters I really need to thank.  You know who you are 🙂  Stay with me though.. I’m pretty scared and it’s a long walk to the valley from the summit.

I hope you all visit more often, and keep in touch… because I am .. Northward Bound… Muse in the Vally!

Walking down the mountain – I listen!

It has been weeks since I last wrote here. I don’t know what I’ve been waiting for however, I have so much I want to write about that my brain has been juggling too much that one thing couldn’t end up on paper (or on screen). I had two full weeks of solitude (well almost) since my son has been gone to camp… I could have written many posts… yet instead I have been observing, reviewing and decluttering my life. I’ve been also taking the time to let myself be inspired by great women and men writers and bloggers who take center stage and lead the life of their dreams by remaining true to their being.


I am an observer, which is how I learn. I watch, I listen, and I take it all in. Once the information I gather is integrated, I can continue on my journey as a blogger/writer. You see this blog has many subjects: gratitude, parenting, spirituality, self-help. When I check out my stats, many of you come here for parenting advice. That is why I am on a quest. A quest to narrow down my blog to one subject or two yet remain true to my being. I cannot see myself writing three different blogs, I want one and only one and I want to be consistent. I know I have a voice. I know it is in there somewhere waiting to listen to what you have to say.


See how I said that? My voice wants to listen to you… How does that make sense? I think I know what I’m talking about. Jennifer knows!


Writing on many subjects keeps me sane. I know I would get bored of writing only parenting posts, but I do not want to be too random either. I want balance. So please be patient with me as I discover my “blogger self”.


I enjoy writing very much. I enjoy sharing my stories; however, a very wise woman is telling me to listen to you and report back! So… here I go listening.. Listening.. Listening.. Getting ready to tell YOUR stories…



Kim the reporter… J