When carrying your shoes starts to make sense

Many of you know Jennifer Shelton, she’s the awesome woman behind all the fabulous stuff over at FemCentral The Virtual Institute for Women.  For those who do not, clic over to her site, I guarantee she will rock your socks off!



This is her latest dream!  

I was napping in a used bookstore, when a famous author came in. An African-American man whose name I recognized but could not place what he’d written. I went in the bookstore bathroom, which was also a pharmacy (?) and noticed were sanitary napkins stuffed in a hole in the baseboard. Ending up driving a friend to a nearby town, so she could use a cheap pharmacy to get a prescription, and on the way back, my car was on the interstate, and I followed along beside of it, in the grass, carrying my shoes. I’d put down my shoes, run to see where the car was, and then, go back and get my shoes. Somehow I kept up with the car but at the end, in order to get back in the car (it was running off the road), I lost track of my shoes. I was quite upset. Then, I passed some people with Soviet flags and was upset that I’d forgotten how to speak Russian

The Interpretation

Its seems to me, that much of this dream has to do with your project(S).  Not only your book, but your site as well. (but also there may be a glimpse of your personal life going on here too). Since we’ve spoken I also see your dream has brought up your past education.  I suspect your were afraid you have forgotten what you have learned in order to use it now, however, you are coming to realise that what you have learned and experienced in the past is working for you now.

There is some angst and frustration though.  Forgetting your shoes, which are in your waking life necessary and valuable.. But I think the shoes represent your education: To you shoes mean something that is necessary, protective, comforting and practical, useful.. They are “valuable” to you. Without shoes she would be lost!!!  If I were to describe my education, I would use those words, and you also used “a necessary investment and expensive”!!! So is an education.  What this tells me is that you value your education and you want to start using it to your advantage.  Leaving your shoes behind was a HUGE frustration for you, so I am thinking… Maybe you do not believe that all these projects reflect your education and feel that maybe others would be disappointed like:  “Crap.. She got all this education and she is doing all this hocus pocus stuff! And trying to be a writer.. Who is she kidding?”  (Not that I believe that at all!  And I am just putting it out there!! Or maybe you are unconsciously saying this to yourself?)  Also.. The leaving behind part also reminds me of how you left a website or something like that behind last week?

You mentioned Martin Luther King when we spoke about the African-American Author.  MLK was an activist, you are an activist, to me he reflects what you are doing for women.. So it makes sense that he is walking in the used bookstore.. This used bookstore is a place to find old books that have already been written.  To me this represents what has already been written in you… What you already KNOW!! Which ties into the above (your knowledge is golden).  BTW you probably know this already but he is a Capricorn.. Interesting.

The bathroom with the tampons in the holes of the baseboard.  I see the tampons as FEMININE protection!  You are the voice of the female species right!  So these tampons were put in the holes to protect for something (but I am not sure what).  Where do those holes lead to? Is my question. Could someone be peeking in if those tampons weren’t there to protect?

The pharmacy:  A pharmacy is a place where we get things to heal ourselves physically.  First I see protection (tampons) then I see healing (pharmacy).  There must be something that needs healing within you.. Something you had to get your other self too (that friend).  She needs a cheap pharmacy to boot!! Healing that is inexpensive.  Who is this friend? Describe her to yourself.. What part of you does she represent?

The car:  At first you are in the car, in control, driving your friend… then suddenly you are on the interstate:  Busy busy and chaotic!  So you choose to walk in the nice soft grass beside your car.  Is this the safe route?  Or is this a good a comfortable route for you to take?  Both of these are good… If you need the comfy route in the grass in your life.. This is ok!!

The car, is related to you going back and forth for the shoes.  This is the part I find a bit more challenging to interpret.  If the shoes are reflect your education, protection and necessity.. The car is also that for you.  Yet, at one point the car is veering off the road and you have forsaken your shoes for the car?  What does that mean to you?  Has there been an exchange somewhere recently in your life, that you had to choose between 2 things that were important to you? Like as if you had to weigh the pro’s and con’s to decide?

The Russian tourists are strangers in your land and you are trying to communicate with them using something you have previously learned but temporarily forgotten…. I know you can probably tie this one in with the rest.

Jen’s Original Response: (uncensored)

“I don’t know that I’d connected all of this with my education but I do see that now. And, my website that I left behind was a more traditional site, that really highlighted my academic work. Ah, the tampons in the hole in the wall. The hole was already there, so whomever decided it would be useful to go ahead and use that space. Kind of like me starting FemCentral! I did it b/c there was a “hole” in my life. There were two other people in the dream (besides the African-American author) AND they were the two women who were laid off when I was. So, yep, there’s that connection too! My career transition is quite unexpected and my parents have frequently said, “I can’t believe you got this expensive education and you’re working as an astrologer.” Bingo

The art of interpreting dreams cannot be learnt from books. Methods and rules are good only when we can get along without them. Only the man who can do it anyway has real skill, only the man of understanding really understands.

“The Meaning of Psychology for Modern Man” (1933). In CW 10: Civilization in Transition. pg. 327

With love



Zakaphorian Dreams Part I – The Dream

Dreams are often most profound when they seem the most crazy.  Sigmund Freud

Welcome to my first published dream interpretation.  I have been interpreting dreams since my early 20s for friends and family using a method I learned by a psychologist and my intuition.  Recently, I started sharing my gift with online friends and found myself seeking to do more and more.  So, its with great pleasure I introduce you to my first dream.  



I had my first dream late 2007; I was very depressed and in dark place emotionally, mentally, spiritually. I remember asking God (like I always do) to watch over my soul mate. It made me feel less lonely inside. One night in 2007, I had a great vivid dream about this really handsome guy: tall, dark hair, big shoulders and arms. He looked intimidating but he really was a warm snuggly man. He had angular facial features (cheek bones, nose, chin, and eye brows). He wore black (t-shirt, jeans, shoes) the jeans were baggy but not falling off the butt, the shirt was tight but comfortable, and the shoes were leather work shoes. What stuck out in my mind the most were the tattoos he had: There was one on his back that was covered up by his t-shirt (it’s a representation of a life changing event he told me in my dream), but there were these wing tips or horns sticking up out of the color of the t-shirt. There was another tattoo down his left arm it was long narrow rectangular shape (it’s on his bicep), but the rest of it was covered up (it’s a religious meaning tattoo; he shared that with me as well). I know about the meanings of the tattoos because I saw them and asked about them in my dream.

Frequently I have dreams about this guy in all kind of situations: for example one dream I was having an emotional breakdown sitting in a bath tub just crying and screaming. He was there just very calmly and supportively sitting by me not saying anything…just letting me get it all out. The bath tub was white, the walls where a tan color, the tile was white/gray marble, and the towels were red. I remember I was feeling…completely exhausted by everything on every level (physically, emotionally, mentally, etc…) He was just there quiet and not judgmental…very loving energy. The relationship I had with this guy was deeply intimate, committed: a friendship, partnership, lover, and very intense.



Last November(2010) I wasn’t feeling very good after I had an intense energy healing session with a new client on a Tuesday night and I was completely drained the next day along with back pain. The problem was that my client’s energy got intertwined with mine and was stuck, which was stressful experience for me. Thursday I got an experienced friend to help me be released, and by Friday I was a total zombie. I felt very much like I did back in 2007. Friday night I was half watching TV, which is very rare for me to do by the way? I ended up watching Ghost Adventures (never heard of this show before…let alone the people in it). I noticed the tattoo on one of the guy’s neck and thought nothing of it until a few days later. There was a flash…light bulb of OMG that’s the tattoo the guy in my dreams has! I frantically looked up the TV show I was watching to find out who was on it. I saw a picture of the guy (his name is Zak), he had the arm tattoo…looked freakishly the same as the tattoo from my dreams. There was Zak and that neck tattoo the guy in my dream had. The research I have done on Zak informed me that his back tattoo is actually symbolic of when he was partly possessed during a paranormal investigation in Povalia Italy. In my dream I only knew the guy’s back tattoo symbolized a life changing event in his life. It’s interesting to me how I noticed his back tattoo the day after I had my own “possession”, since his tattoo symbolizes a time in his life when he was in a similar situation. Zak didn’t get his back tattoo until 2009…I had a dream about this guy with a very similar looking back tattoo it in 2007?!! Every time I see Zak’s back tattoo I get chills all over as you can imagine.


Just a little note about me before I go on I’ve always wrote out character traits or things in a guy that I like and value in a long term partner.  As I’ve watched Ghost Adventures and learn more about Zak, and so on. I notice that the list I wrote of character traits in my soul mate that want or wish for(those things  I wrote a long time ago) reflect Zak’s traits, likes, dislikes, hobbies, and so on match up with Zak’s traits, likes, dislikes, hobbies. To me this is just way to freaky to ignore or pass off as a coincidence. It’s not just that either “other things” happen without any rational explanation such as: over the 4th of July weekend I was very tired, emotionally at a breaking point (I worked 60 hours that past week) and the house was a mess. I stepped in a cat hair ball, and I was getting pissed off, frustrated, cranky to the point of tears…someone re-tweeted Zak’s tweet about how his last 24 hrs were shitty and he actually stepped in his dog’s pee. I don’t follow Zak on facebook or twitter, due to my work schedule I can’t watch his shows any more. Somehow by an act of a higher power things like this happen. Another time something similar happened one day my cell phone was sitting in my purse at work locked up and turned off. I turned it on, there was a picture of Zak…Random things like that happen. That is why I’m getting to the point of needing clarity or something, because this isn’t just some freak event….not a coincidence type of deal.


I’m obsessed with finding out what is going on and what is triggering this strong connection to me with a guy I’ve never met in this life time. Earlier this year (2011) is when this obsession came over me to figure out what this means, what is going on, and so on started. I have been trying to figure it out through astrology, asking my spirit guide/God, and talking with my friends. I just can’t seem to figure it out…


This dream has changed my life since last November…I feel like I’m losing my mind. I just can’t ignore it or pass it off as “nothing” any longer. Kim please help me out, and yes I still have dreams with the guy in them at least a couple times a week.

Kelly Beversdorf

See below for Part II –  The Interpretation + The Astral Intepretation by Jennifer Shelton