Face Off – Workin’ Things Out


People are like stained-glass windows. They sparkle and shine when the sun is out, but when the darkness sets in their true beauty is revealed only if there is light from within. ~Elisabeth Kübler-Ross

Yesterday I introduced you to Mel Horrod.  You can see the post here

After wondering why she had not been dreaming in a long time, she was ready to dream again. You will find below the first of a series of four dreams Mel had in the span of a couple of weeks.  Today, she Faces Off in her dream 2 sides of herself while she observes. 

 The Dream

I dreamed that I was walking my mum’s current dog who is a terrier type but I was walking her round the old football (soccer) pitch near to where we used to live (between the age of 8-17) with her and I felt I had to keep her on the leash even though she was pulling me along despite being small because otherwise I was worried she would just run off. We then found ourselves in a room with a girl who used to be a friend of mine but through a row with another friend we have drifted apart. She was there with a man younger than herself. He wasn’t anyone I knew but the archetype of the kind of man she used to go for (and still does) younger than her, ‘rough’, not very clever, and aggressive and negative towards her.

They were both sitting in chairs opposite each other and the dog and I were on the couch. The dog sat on my lap. I realised that I was in the role of relationship councillor. I pointed out a lot of this boy’s flaws to him (in a condescending way I might add *blush*) and why things weren’t working out and the more I spoke the more aggressive he got. He didn’t touch me or my friend but he punched the chair where he was sitting and was nasty about my friend. I then decided to get down to his level and empathise with him as a different tact and this seemed to work better. I also asked the dog for advice and seemed to think that she agreed with me. I have no idea what this all means. The dog being there felt normal but today feels strange and why this friend?

 

The Interpretation

This is what I am getting… You are walking in the field with the dog.. The field represents, In my opinion, a place to be yourself, where there is no parental judgement… a place to feel free. This is where it all begins… before we “seem to be” cursed with life (a metaphor I don‘t think life is a curse personally). The dog, since it is pulling you along seems to represent a part of you that is being guided. Dogs are LOYAL. Since you are feeling good (in life), you seem to be holding onto this “feeling/dog” I feel a part of you afraid of letting the good feeling go, so you hang on to it … Like the song “hooked on a feeling”. You are enjoying the space you are in your waking life.

As you move into the room ( a more closed in area your subconscious) you are faced with 2 people.. Those 2 people represent a part of you. One part that is: Pretty, immature, reckless and loyal, and the other part which is: rough, not clever, aggressive and negative. I am not saying you are those things, but you must have, at one time, thought these about yourself. These two seems “teenager like” and form of ying and yang.. Both male and female are playing here.

Also, since these two were sitting opposite each other, and you EGO are the observer (with your trusted dog on your lap/guide) I am thinking both these parts of you are facing off, and you are there to observe and calm things down.. (since you have been decluttering lately, I feel this dream is doing some decluttering for you of some “stuff” while you sleep.)

So you took the time to “point out this guys flaws” Tell him off in a way.. He got mad at the other part of you (girl).. And that is when the SHIFT happened: You became EMPATHETIC.. Towards YOU! You took a gentler approach with yourself… The nasty, mean, aggressive you!

Being nice to yourself does work better…

..and then you asked your guide/dog (your trusted self) and you said: You did good Mel!! and so it is!

You have brains in your head.
You have feet in your shoes.
You can steer yourself in any direction you choose.
You’re on your own.
And you know what you know.
You are the guy/gal who’ll decide where to go.
~Dr. Seuss

Mel’s Response

Kim I have tears in my eyes!!! This is amazing!! I am scared of letting how I feel go (although I am running low on energy today) you are right and I am trying to clear out or at least release these things about myself. I sometimes get very, very angry (like I’m sure a lot of people do) and I was extremely reckless when I was younger (with the girl in my dream a lot of the time too funnily enough.) and these are two parts of myself I wish I didn’t live or didn’t have to live now. As I say, i’m having an awakening. When I tried to tell my sister (just before going to bed on the night of this dream) what was happening to me, she assumed that it’s a religious thing and told me that she didn’t want it shoved down her throat (I offered to send her the NDW book) but it isn’t a religious thing! It’s a spiritual thing and now I am a little worried that she might have told my mum who will be thinking it is another depressive episode and I don’t want to explain it to them. It all makes sense! This is all such fascinating stuff! Thank you, thank you, thank you!  ♥ ♥

Tomorrow, Mel buys a house in her dreams and finds it FULL of stuff!!

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Tequila, the ring, and a chair by a pond – Part III Megan’s Response


To be yourself in a world that is constantly trying to make you something else is the greatest accomplishment. ~Ralph Waldo Emerson

Megan was kind enough to send me an email giving me detailed feedback of my interpretation.  She also blogged about how the interp cleared up some things which you can find here.   You can find the dream posted here and my interpretation poste here.

Megan’s Response

“In the beginning of the dream you resist going to Paris, making up excuses not to go with this group… Paris to you is a cold, touristy place, and a place like anywhere else, so going there in your dream was not important to YOU yet important to others! Right? So I am wondering here, what is it in your life right now, that you are saying NO to because you are standing up for yourself?

Right now I am saying no to getting a real job. I am acting as though everyone around me is secretly thinking – her car just got repossessed and she said she couldn’t do anything about it and yet she refuses to go out and get a job. I am at a huge conflict with this internally right now. Because my Inner Compass is telling me to keep doing what I’m doing so strongly – I refuse to go out and merge with the rest of the herd. It is very scary trusting that voice sometimes.

“… as you leave this group with the dude…you leave your only way of communicating with those you left behind. Leaving you vulnerable and scared.. Out of the loop.. Not knowing.. Disconnected.. Paranoid, like something really bad is going to happen: I feel deep rooted fear in your life right now.”

I feel as though by making this choice to listen to that voice, others might disapprove and abandon me. Others who I felt truly backed me up. My husband in particular. At which point, I can’t help but ask myself, what am I sacrificing to pursue this dream and is it worth it? My answer is still, yes.

“Also, I see in this dream that you are carrying BAGGAGE, lots of it, enough that is takes you long to gather it up and continue on your path every time. So, my question to you is: What baggage are you carrying in this life? That is slowing you down? What still needs to be let go? …”

I think the baggage I am carrying is this mentality. Walking on eggshells for others, afraid I’m wrong or that I’ll disappoint. Or that all of this magic I believe is a hoax and I’ll be laughed at and discredited for believing so strongly.

I see there are two things here you let go willingly!! YES! .. Your dream helped you with this.

1. You let go of Tequila.. I think Tequila represents regret, and self-sabotage! Have you made intentions of letting this go lately? Or maybe you are doing this unconsciously. If not.. Its time to let go of any regret, fears which will lead to self sabotage. Also, the fights with B.. What are the issues about? What are you NOT saying to B in real life that you cannot say without the Tequila? I think letting go of the Tequila in your dream will help with communication with him from now on!

Self-sabotage definitely stands out for me here. Yes. I have. Specifically in my money conversations and relationships. The Mister and I recently ‘fought’ about money. Where for one moment he doubted what it is that I am doing in the world and literally in a matter of seconds came back to reality. It was the strangest thing. It was as if someone else was speaking through him. Shook me up a little bit and kind of created all this worry about whether what I am doing is what I am suppose to be doing or now.

2. The ring: Rings usually mean commitment and loyalty. Do you feel that you need to let go of some of the commitments that you made? Would letting them go make you feel “unloyal”? Because if so, give yourself permission to do so if its not calling you anymore. The fact that you let these go after you went down a narrow steep path leads me to believe that the journey of letting go is scary, and may be mixed with some narrow mindedness (resistance)… (which we all have).. Maybe open up to the idea of letting something go that no longer serves you.. The fact that you went down to do this leads me to believe this is deep rooted!

Commitment and loyalty make me think that I really was concerned that The Mister had lost his loyalty to our lifestyle. And also, if I were to change the way I live and the things I do, I would consider myself disloyal to The Universe that I have so strongly believed in before. Scary. Yes. This is all very accurate.

“The good news is both the pond and the chair mean: That you need some quiet time to yourself.. .a time to reflect on this situation going on in your life, to contemplate to relax. I think whatever is is that is tormenting you, scaring you right NOW, can be resolved with some good old fashioned reflection and meditation.”

>deep sigh< That feels good. The Mister is out of town until tomorrow. So I think I will take today to go within and listen. Heal. Let go.

FATHER (parental figure) is angry because you unleashed a secret. Warning ! Warning ! You get scared of this part of you.. You are hiding from this part of you that holds a secret of some sort. Does everyone in your real family know exactly what you do for a living? Do you hide your real talents from them? Do you feel like if everyone or some knew the Real MEGAN MONIQUE LEWIS HARNER.. They would judge you? I will ask this question but don’t feel insulted.. Is Brian supportive of all that you do? Or does he think (or someone in your life think) You should go out and get a “real job” ???

Not really, no. I know most everyone has seen my website. But no one in my family is Woo Woo like me – so I don’t think they get it in it’s entirety. My Dad has asked me about it several times and I always explain it fully, but I think it scares him more than he wants to understand it. I know that he would love for me to get a real job. But he doesn’t ever pressure me about it. B. is supportive with the exception of the brief moment I mentioned earlier.

“Because you feel hurried, misplaced, unwanted, disliked, scared, threatened etc.. Seems to me someone is your real life or YOU are putting pressure on yourself..and judging yourself.. STOP THAT!!! Because in the end you are singing happily in your choir.. But again.. You meet dissaproval…”

I think that I am the one putting all the pressure and disapproval on myself through the eyes of others without them actually saying anything about it. Kind of silly, huh?

“North Node (except from northnodeastology.com)

Your Aries North Node Soul wants to find its courage. It wants to be excited, to explore, and even to be stressed out– if that’s what it will take to bring forth the independent and courageous side of you! Courage is the high road for Aries, and it’s what we do each time we step up the plate and “show up” whether we feel like it or not. Courage is what we need to have to survive and to be a pioneer. You are the natural survivor, pioneer, entrepreneur and sacred warrior of the zodiac.”

Courage, I really like that. It calls to me.

Thank you for pointing this out and for the entire interpretation! I am so grateful. This has definitely cleared somethings up for me.

Megan

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Tequila, the ring, and a chair by a pond – Part I The Dream


To be yourself in a world that is constantly trying to make you something else is the greatest accomplishment.~ Ralph Waldo Emerson

I want to start this post by thanking my special guest Megan Monique for letting me delve into her dream this week.  I am truly grateful that she trusted me and allowed me to post this as my Dream Friday post.  Showing vulnerability takes a lot of courage.

When dreams are all over the place, often, we believe they make no sense at all.  We look at them and push them aside thinking maybe we ate too much pumpkin pie before bed.  What I do when I interpret a dream; I call mapping (I do not know if any other interpreter calls it this).   I pull out all the players (roles) and symbols (i.e. places or items) and map them out so I can have a clearer picture.  Often,  I must ask the dreamer questions to figure out what the symbol means to them, because symbols in dreams are rarely Universal although sometimes they are (I use a dream dictionary for reference only).  I rely mostly on my instinct and what I already know about a person.  Lets look at Megan’s dream:

The Dream

The dream started off with me going to Paris. I was going with a group of friends and just as the plane was beginning to pull up I decided I was too scared to go.  I claimed I didn’t have a passport and the boy’s house I ended up at is the one who picked me up. I had left my phone with one of my friends accidentally. The group was upset I didn’t want to go to Paris. The older sister was supposed to be going to, but had to come home when we had the releasing ceremony. She wasn’t happy about that. *Note to reader, you will discover, the dude,  the older sister, and the ceremony in context below.

I was with a guy that wasn’t Brian. I went to his apartment, we had sex and the next day I had to leave shortly after he went to work. I walked outside to put my things in my car and drove to a place where parents were and a two sisters. The entire time I felt a sense of paranoia. Like I was watching my back, waiting for something to happen. There was a group of people including myself, the two sisters and the parents. We travelled down a case of stairs that were steep and closed in. When we got to the bottom there was a small pond with a chair beside it. I had some things in one of my bags I was told it was finally time to release. One was a bottle of tequila, I feel like the other might have been a ring, but I can’t remember. I let these things go willingly. And then the older of the two sisters died but the younger sister could still see her. I think I could too. The older sister began warning me.

We went back into the house and I suddenly felt threatened by the father. Like I had done something to reveal a secret he had. I locked myself in the bedroom getting all of my things together to try and leave and he kept trying to come in. I think the ghost of the older sister had shared that he was hurting her secretly. The threatening went on for a while, but that is the last thing I remember.

At both places I went, the boy who I slept with and this house with the family – it took me FOREVER, like an hour for me gather my things up and when I carried my things, it was difficult to hold it all myself but no one offered to help. They were all not interested in helping me in any way.

The entire dream I felt hurried, misplaced, unwanted, disliked, scared, threatened and like I was hiding from something or someone.

At the end of the dream, I was singing at a concert on stage. It was like gospel music. There was a choir behind me. I felt like I was rockin’ it, but when I went to greet my family that was watching they seemed disappointed in my performance. I was surprised by their reactions.

Thanks Megan

Please see following post for interpretation. Thanks 🙂

Tequila, the ring, and a chair by a pond – Part II The Interpretation


Please note in tomorrow’s post Megan Monique gives

 me her take on the interpretation.

 

The Interpretation

 

Being with a group usually means you are merging various aspects of your personality. I see many players in this dream. Each and every one of them, it seems, represent a part of you, thus the merging.

In the beginning of the dream you resist going to Paris, making up excuses not to go with this group, right at the last-minute. As we discussed, Paris in your eyes is a cold, touristy place, and a place like anywhere else, so going there in your dream was not important to YOU yet important to others! Right? So I am wondering here, what is it in your life now, that you are saying NO to because you are standing up for yourself?

As you leave this group with the DUDE (that’s the name I gave him) you leave your only way of communicating with those you left. Leaving you vulnerable and scared.. Out of the loop.. Not knowing.. Disconnected.. Paranoid, like something really bad is going to happen: I feel deep-rooted fear in your life now.

Also, I see in this dream that you are carrying BAGGAGE, lots of it, enough that is takes you long to gather it up and continue on your path every time. So, my question is: What baggage are you carrying in this life which is slowing you down? What still needs go?

I see there are two things here you let go willingly!! YES! Your dream helped you with this.

1. You let go of Tequila.. I think Tequila represents regret, and self-sabotage. Have you made intentions of letting this go lately? Or maybe you are doing this unconsciously. If not.. Its time to let go of any regret, fears which will lead to self sabotage. Also, the fights with Brian! What are the issues about.. What are you NOT saying to Brian today that you cannot say without the Tequila!!! ?? I think letting go of the Tequila in your dream will help with communication with him from now on!

2. The ring: Rings usually mean commitment and loyalty. Do you feel that you need to let go of some of the commitments that you made? Would letting them go make you feel “unloyal”? Because if so, give yourself permission to do so if it’s not calling you anymore.

The fact that you let these go after you went down a narrow steep path leads me to believe that the journey of letting go is scary, and mixed with some narrow-mindedness (resistance)… (which we all have).. Maybe open up to the idea of letting something go that no longer serves you.. Could be past hurts, past friendships.etc.. The fact that you went down to do this leads me to believe this is deep-rooted!

The good news is both the pond and the chair mean you need some quiet time to yourself.. .a time to reflect on this situation going on in your life.. Time to contemplate to relax. I think whatever is that is tormenting you, scaring you right NOW, can be resolved with some good old-fashioned reflection and meditation.

Once the baggage let go in the pond, the older sister dies. This leads me to believe a part of you has died, the angry Tequila chick!!! Like I said, letting go releases the anger (cause the older sister was angry a few times in this dream)..

Then she WARNS you. Your inner child (id) and EGO (you) both hear this.

FATHER (parental figure) is angry because you unleashed a secret. Warning ! Warning ! You get scared of this part of you.. You are hiding from this part of you that holds a secret of some sort. Does everyone in your real family know exactly what you do for a living? Do you hide your real talents from them? Do you feel like if everyone knew the Real MEGAN MONIQUE They would judge you? I will ask this question but don’t feel insulted.. Is Brian supportive of all that you do? Or does he think (or someone in your life think) You should go out and get a “real job” ???

“We must be willing to let go of the life we have planned,
so as to accept the life that is waiting for us.”
~Joseph Campbell~

Because you feel hurried, misplaced, unwanted, disliked, scared, threatened etc.. Seems to me someone is your real life or YOU are putting pressure on yourself..and judging yourself. STOP THAT!!! Because in the end you are singing happily with your choir. The choir, I truly believe represents all those who do support you, and most importantly the part of you who believes in yourself.. Alas, yet again, you meet disapproval.

Who disapproves? Who is not supporting you in your new endeavours? Who are you hiding your true self from?

As we discussed, I think your North Node is calling you. We’ve discussed these North Nodes many times with Jennifer Shelton. Maybe she can clarify further, and give you another perspective.

I found this description of your North Node here:

North Node, Libra South Node (found on northnodeastro for the purpose of this interpretation)

Your Aries North Node Soul wants to find its courage. It wants to be excited, to explore, and even to be stressed out— if that’s what it will take to bring forth the independent and courageous side of you! Courage is the high road for Aries, and it’s what we do each time we step up the plate and “show up” whether we feel like it or not. Courage is what we need to have to survive and to be a pioneer. You are the natural survivor, pioneer, entrepreneur and sacred warrior of the zodiac.

However, if you wish, ask Jennifer at FemCentral to see what role your North Node  and South Node play in this dream, because I have a feeling they do..

Jennifer is the  founder of FemCentral, where she also works as an astrologer, intuitive coach and instructor.

I really loved interpreting Megan’s dream.  There is so much more I discovered while writing this post.   I hope you enjoyed today’s #DreamFriday.  Please come back tomorrow.  I will be posting Megan’s feedback. 

Sweet dreams